Tarot Card Reading: Choices, Choices, Choices
By Gina Rabbin
Each day, we are faced with a multitude of choices. From the mundane to the life altering, we cannot escape the need to choose one thing over another. We choose what to wear, what to eat, what movie to see, what book to read. We choose where we want to live, who we want to be friends with, who we want to spend our life with. But when was the last time you had to make a choice between something you wanted to do and something you knew was the right thing to do? Daniel had to confront that issue, and he came to me seeking an answer.
With complete honesty, Daniel told me he had been released from prison seven weeks earlier after serving a 16-month sentence. He had made a stupid choice, he said, which led to his incarceration, and, although he was no longer in prison, he was on parole. Daniel shared with me that he came from an affluent background, with loving and supportive parents. The possibility of ever going to prison was a concept that had never been a part of his former life. Not, that is, until the moment he made a decision that was to change his life forever. And now he had another choice to make.
Daniel had been invited to a graduation party of an old friend he very much wanted to see again. The party was being held in another county, and Daniel had planned to take a train to the event and return the same day. Unfortunately, one of the terms of Daniel's parole was that he was not allowed out of the county without his parole officer's approval. His request was denied.
Daniel told me that his parole officer had never in the past seven weeks called or visited him unexpectedly. He felt that if he went to the party, returning the same day, it was unlikely he would be caught. Daniel wanted to know what he should do.
Why, you might ask, would Daniel even consider violating his parole, after less than two months of freedom, jeopardizing that very freedom just to go to a party? On the surface, this would seem to be a very easy choice for anyone to make. However, as we know, what lies beneath the surface is much more complex and difficult to understand. The real issue here was Daniel's pattern of making wrong choices. One wrong choice had resulted in his incarceration for 16 months. A wrong choice made now could result in being returned to prison. And yet, Daniel was still considering it.
The choice Daniel would make now, in this situation, would lay the groundwork for the manner in which he would make future difficult choices. He had the opportunity to recognize and change a destructive behavior pattern and alter the course of his life. What would the cards have to say, and would he listen?
The first card that showed up was the Two of Swords, confirming that Daniel was, indeed, at a crossroads in his life. After 16 months of jail, he was chafing at his continued lack of freedom on the "outside" and considering making a poor choice as a result. This showed clearly in the Page of Swords, which expressed his feeling of still being imprisoned, lacking control over his own life, his movements regulated by his parole officer. The Four of Pentacles spoke to Daniel's narrow-minded focus on desiring instant gratification rather than looking at the long-term consequences. It was The Devil, however, who had the most to say to Daniel.
The Devil, the energy that tempts us to listen to our ego rather than our higher self, represents our own baser nature. It taunts us with our wants and desires, it speaks to the spoiled child in us who wants what it wants and wants it now! The energy of The Devil was speaking very loudly to Daniel, who was straining at the restrictions of his parole and wanting to experience his release from prison with absolute and unopposed freedom.
The Devil spoke to Daniel of the difference between what he wanted and what was wanting for him. What does this mean? "What I want" comes from that place within that desires to receive or achieve something with the focus on how it will make us feel at that particular moment. It is impulsive, sometimes reckless, and often without thought of anything other than fulfilling that immediate desire. "What is wanting for me" comes from a deeper awareness of what is appropriate, what is for our higher good, a decision that has a long-term beneficial outcome. "I want" is ego. "What is wanting for me" is higher consciousness.
Daniel wanted to act on his impulsive desire to go to a party. He knew this was not the appropriate choice and he knew it was a reckless thing to do. He understood that he was being presented with an opportunity to look at his pattern of fulfilling an immediate desire without regard to outcome, and learn to make choices based on what was right. Daniel had a chance to use a terrible experience as a catalyst for personal growth. I don't know what his final decision was.
While few of our choices will have as drastic an impact on us as Daniel's, we must still challenge ourselves on a regular basis and question where our choices come from. Are we choosing to act on what we want, or what is wanting for us?
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Gina Rabbin is a life-long intuitive and catalyst for clarity. She helps people clarify and resolve their personal and professional issues in order to create more fulfilling and meaningful lives. Currently residing in San Francisco, CA, Gina is available for tarot card readings in person or by telephone. For more information, please visit http://www.ginarabbin.com.